Now that I'm only making a bi monthly newsletter, I am going to used my blog. I have been feeling more depressed and yesterday was the worst I have felt in almost 6 years. I had suicidal thoughts and feeling, I was in a dark hole and could not crawl out yesterday. Today is better.

I got word today that a friend of mine dad committed suicide last night. I feel bad for Tisha. I can just pray for her and her family. I have attempted suicide before. I know what is like to just give up. It sucks when you are in that frame of mind.